And what a lovely day it has been. But you shouldn’t just make the effort to cheer your mum up on one day of the year, you should be doing that every day. Appreciate her. Make her smile. Love her. And most of all thank her; After all she is the one that brought you into this world <3
I got old over the weekend; scary stuff! I feel like i should be all grown up by now and have my life plans laid out in front of me, looking into a bright future. This really isn’t happening for me right now though. I find myself taking each day as it comes, and just enjoying each moment for what it is.
My birthday was really lovely, mum took me out for lunch and shopping too, then i saw joseph in the evening. He bought me a really nice blu-ray and dvd player with some blue-ray films and a massive box of thorntons chocolates too dear of him. I spent most of the weekend with him and went out last night too with some friends. I had a really good night and i do feel really lucky to have so many friends that are always here for me, they are so lovely to me and make that extra effort to make me smile.
Even through all my smiles this weekend though i can’t help but feel sad, like something is missing. Nan always used to make that extra effort to get me something i’d really like, or take me out for lunch and make me feel so special. I miss her so much i really do. I need to know how long this hurt last’s for, when does the longing to see her start to finally fade away, when will these tears stop flowing?
This is funny. But i suppose not so funny at the same time as a lot, and i mean a lot, of people have been joking around that i’m pregnant lately. I’m not i can say with confidence, and breathe a sigh of relief but it does make me wonder why people keep saying it. Maybe i really did get fat. Ohwell.
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It’s time to stop focusing on what we all want and start enjoying the things we already have.
That’s what people do who love you. They put their arms around you and love you when you’re not so lovable.
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So i’m gonna cram in as much nice stuff as i can now without feeling guilty… Just had carrot cake with tons of icing.. tomorrow’s treat is going to be asha (indian) then saturday is going to be chinese before a lovely messy New years eve!! Sunday i’ll be too hungover to eat anyway so the diet can fit in nicely then. NEED TO LOOSE THIS EXTRA HALF STONE THAT HAS SOMEHOW FOUND ME.
Australia was amazing it really was. Managed to do everything i wanted to do like scuba dive the great barrier reef, learn to surf, go to steve irwin’s zoo and loads more. Even though it was just over a week ago i flew home, it all seems so distant now like it happened ages ago.
I’ve settled right back into my normal life which is good, loving my new job as team leader on checkouts. It’s pretty stressful though as they left me to run the whole department after just 2 days coaching but i suppose being thrown in at the deep end is the best way to learn. I feel as though i’m picking things up quickly but ive probably made my fair share of mistakes already. Doing my first open tomorrow and have no idea what i’m supposed to do so i’ll just have to guess and hope for the best!
Things with joseph are better than ever. I was so worried that when i came home he wouldn’t want me any more or that he’d have found someone better, but infact he just wanted me more. I stayed his the night i came home and things were just perfect. i couldn’t sleep cos of jet lag but i just watched him sleep and all night he was cuddled up to me, even when he turned he still wanted to be close to me, holding me, it was so cute. We can barely keep our hands off eachother so work is complete torture just having to look at him from a distance or walk past barely acknowledging him. He knew i was really stressed with work so the other night he surprised me by cooking me dinner first, then he gave me a candle lit massage with all relaxing music playing and he also set up a candle lit bath with loads of bubbles for me too. I’ve never had anybody care about me this much, so desperate to please me and someone who actually wants to make me happy, i was so over whelmed i could have cried! We went out last night and we were both pretty drunk but he was telling me how he has waited 3 years to find someone like me and it was so worth the wait. He told me that in a few years time he wants to marry me too. I can honestly see it happening though. The way i feel about him and us right now, nobody can get in the way of, nothing will ruin us. I feel like we are invincible. We are perfect together and in years to come i will marry him and have his children and hopefully grow old with him. I know i’m probably living in a dream world but i don’t care, i’ve never been this happy before and i’m definitely going to enjoy it while it lasts then hope that it lasts forever.
Having a lush time out here. I’m in Cairns at the minute and have been here for about a week with samantha and rachel too. We are at the top of the east coast so hopefully within the next week we will start travelling down it as its less than 4 weeks until we fly home again! I will be sad to leave as its going by so quick and its lovely to have so much time to relax and enjoy myself, but at the same time i really miss Joseph more than i thought i would and it does get me down a bit so i cant wait to get back home and have a massive cuddle! For now though i am gonna make the most of the time left here. I’ve done 3 day trips this week alone! I went to Kuranda village and rainforestation park which was a zoo, learnt how to throw a boomerang, play a didjeridoom, and watched aboriginal dancing then wandered through the markets. Then all 4 of us went to fitzroy island yesterday where we went snorkeling, kayaking and on the water trampoline, and also went on a rainforest walk and saw the biggest spider i have ever seen, a golden orb spider it was called and they make the biggest webs in the world! The island was so pretty! then we went out last night for ladies night which is free champagne and a traffic light party so that was a really good night and i didnt spend a penny! Today me and lucy went to hartleys crocodile farm and it was amazing to see how big the crocs are up close. There were boat trips around the lagoons and the keepers made the crocs jump out of the water to get the food which was amazing! Got some good pictures! Tomorrow night we are going on another bar crawl which is always a laugh!
I’m trying to cram so much in but i honestly dont know what to do. I’m so stressed right now i hate it. I want to work loads to get money but that means i have less free time. I want to see my friends before i go and they keep nagging me too but its so hard to find the time to see them all. I want to spend every minute i can with Joseph too. I need to take time to arrange things for the trip such as bank and phone stuff, packing etc. I am literally being pulled in all different directions and i dont know what to do. i hate it. AHHH this is so much more stressful than i ever imagined; i thought i’d be really excited, relaxed and looking forward to my trip, but right now i’m feeling way too unorganised to feel good.
I got him an x-box steering wheel which he has wanted for ages and i got a few other bits too. He absolutely loved his presents which i’m so glad about! We had a bit of a lazy day then went to his mum’s for tea which was nice. Today we are going go-karting at st eval which i’m looking forward to as i have never been! Hopefully i wont be too bad on the track!
Just found out tonight at work that when i come back from oz i will no longer have a job in the cafe. They aren’t sacking me or anything but they are moving me departments to begin my team leader job; onnly trouble is i dont know where they are moving me :/ . I’m pretty scared about it to be honest as although i do loads of overtime elsewhere, cafe is thejob that i know absolutely everything about and i’m so comfortable in my ability to do my job perfectly there. What if i dont live up to standard on another department? AHHH.
Well its shit.
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Fast forward 3 weeks and i will be thousands of miles up in the air on the plane still, waiting to start my holiday of a lifetime! AHHHH I’m scared but so excited!!
Things were entirely different from what they have been like thankgod, i was starting to think i have problems lol. Maybe i just need to stop being so flippin’ paranoid and just enjoy the simple pleasures in life. Panic over.
